I had one of those nights last night, you know the ones where you go to bed only to toss & turn. Then you realize it’s pointless staying there, you may as well get up & read for awhile.
Then God gave me a little spiritual tap on my spiritual shoulder!
He definitely had my attention at that point, it was the wee hours of the morn when…
Let’s grab our cuppa’s, treats & get comfy for our time of reflection together my friend.
Today I have a tea blend called Eggnog with caramel & hazelnut pieces in it & a toasted slice of gf Banana Bread with butter melting upon its deliciousness.
You see I couldn’t sleep last night because I was in quite a bit of physical pain & had some things on my mind.
As you may know, if you join me here often, I have autoimmune conditions of which one is chronic pain.
I have learnt to live with this pain over the past sixteen years with several pain management strategies. The greatest being prayer.
However, yesterday I had a phone call from one of my loved ones, they had just been diagnosed with a chronic condition that causes chronic pain & other nasty symptoms.
This deeply saddened me, I mean it’s one thing to live with chronic pain yourself & I’m sure all the parents & grandparents out there can relate to this, it’s quite another thing entirely when your dear loved ones are diagnosed with it too.
My instant go to after the conversation was to research this diagnosis for the prognosis, a legacy of being an allied health professional.
However, I stopped myself, realizing my first go to needed to be prayer as my loved one needed God’s strength & comfort more then anything else in that moment…
I also wanted to hop straight in my car & travel to be with them which I always want to do when any of my loved ones are going through challenging times. But this is not often possible with flares in my own chronic conditions.
So, you can see why I was having a restless night!
When God gives you a little tap on your spiritual shoulder He definitely gets your attention as I sat thinking what to read I felt prompted to pick up an old journal from 2013 & read a few entries I had written that year.
The following entry leapt out of the pages at me, it was a profound conversation between one of my adult daughters & I…
She had asked me what God had been showing me in my life at that point…my reply,
“God keeps giving me the message to ‘Be’ at rest in Him…as I have been a people rescuer most of my life… While the caring behind that may be well meaning it’s not always wise or God honoring!
I’m learning that it’s God’s place to rescue others, if needed, my place is to trust Him to do His Will in the way He sees fit & not my way, timing or how I think it should be done!
That’s where I have to literally trust God to work in that situation (a continual handing over to Him as each situation comes to my attention).
And I’m learning what a major part prayer has in all of this…“
My daughter’s reply,
“So, He has taken your brokenness & is building you up in His love. That’s true love!
I see how brave you are Mama, I see how much these conditions take out of you. I also see how much God loves you.
I see how much He adores you & wants to take your worries & burdens. How much He desires to give you rest.
You show worship & honor to God when you let Him be who He is
& allow yourself to be who He created you to be…His child!”
You can see why this conversation leapt out at me!
How applicable is this for the current situation & what words of wisdom God gave my daughter back then & for such a time as this now!
The Word, Prayer
My word for this year is Prayer, I had wondered what journey God would take me on.
Although, I can see that it has actually been a journey over my entire lifetime, for prayer has always been important to me for as long as I can remember, even as a child.
This current situation gives me the opportunity to put what I have learnt within my journey of prayer into practice & to continue on that journey.
Because prayer for others isn’t just a conversation or petition with God for them, it’s so much more!
Prayer entails trust, humility & a surrendering to God’s will for our loved ones life
As He knows their beginning to eternity, after all He is their Creator, His following promise will be fulfilled in their life as in ours when they are His children,
“I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare not for evil but for a future full of hope.”
Jeremiah 29: 11
That old hymn has just come to mind, ‘I surrender all’…all to Jesus my loving Savior, I surrender all…a rendition is Here
And you’ll be pleased to know I went back to bed & had an amazingly peaceful sleep after placing it all in God’s hands.
Until next time,
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