Hi ya, welcome my friend! Let me ask you a rhetorical question. Have you ever had a yearning for isolation & solitude? When life feels overwhelming in its demands that you just need some time out!
I have been feeling just like this in the past few days…so I thought this would be a good opportunity to explore the reasons & discover what can be done…over a cuppa of course.
First, let’s grab our cuppas & treats, although I haven’t had a treat of old for ages! Since adopting this new lifestyle, old treats have disappeared from my cuppa times.
Although, I’m happy to report, imaging the sound of a drum roll here….I have been able to come off my regular pain meds for the chronic pain of Fibromyalgia (FM)! Yay!
The pain is still there but its intensity has lowered considerably & I’m coping without pain meds! This has allowed a gradual increase in my physical activity!
As a bonus I have lost 10kgs (22lbs) due to the new lifestyle eating habits, since the gobsmaking surprise in How to Earn money while you Sleep!
Thus hopefully reducing my risk of developing full blown Type II diabetes, which I’ll learn when I go for tests next month to get the final verdict. Stay tuned!
I know…I know, I feel like it’s an absolute miracle too! So definitely giving God the glory here!
But in the past week I’ve physically over done it! And that is an unwise course of action with FM! Because it can be a vengeful & nasty force in its post exertion malaise!
At this point it would be very easy for me to blame nasty FM for feeling overwhelmed. However to be truly authentic, I need to admit there are other issues at play.
The reality is that instead of ‘being still‘ knowing God is God in my situation, which I was called to do over a decade ago, I have this inherent desire to ‘do’. So as soon as I start to have a ‘better’ cycle with FM.
I start to think that I’ll be able to get back to my old active self & I start planning! Tentively allowing an excitement to bubble, that maybe… Just maybe this is the break through to healing that I have been hoping & looking forward to!
Fibromyalgia is cyclic, ranging from severe cycles which are commonly known as ‘flares’, to not as severe which are known as ‘better’ cycles. Although we aren’t free of the symptoms of the condition in these better cycles, especially global pain, the intensity of the pain & symptoms lessen.
There’s no particular timing or pattern to these cycles, sometimes there can be triggers & other times not, these ‘flares’ can come on suddenly & last for days or months at a time.
The Sea of Maybes
No, this overwhelm is not directly from Fibromyalgia, though it has definitely had its influence. This is from my own deep desire to be more then…More able bodied, more energetic, to have more social & cognitive energy to be more involved with my family, friends & community…& to be working again!
It comes from momentarily taking my focus off what the Lord is doing in my life in the here & now, to directly focus on the scary waves of the future…
Those huge rolling waves of overwhelming magnitude that threaten to swap me in the sea of maybes… Just maybe healing won’t come in the form I’m hoping! Just maybe this pain & all the other nasties that come with FM are permanent!
A wave of love
Ahhh! But look what’s in that wave…Can you see the heart shape? It’s a heart of love…God’s love is there in the sea of maybes. I know His love isn’t a maybe but a definite!
Being still with Him in this time of chronic health issues has enabled me to be here sharing with you, over a cuppa which is my favorite thing to do, reflecting upon His love, His strength, His care in the waves of the overwhelm!
Are you feeling overwhelmed with the demands in your life my dear friend? Then rest assured that His love is still there, He has a purpose for you even when the waves of the overwhelm threaten to swap you…Your lifesaver is getting you to shore…
Until next time,
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