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The following is an excerpt from my book;

   I go to prepare a place for you”  John 14:2 *

 

Chapter Three

A Time to weep…& a time for peace...

Ecclesiates 3: 4a & 8b

February 18, 1983…Benjamin, my only son was born…sleeping…

A Placental Abruption had been set in motion…placental abruption as was medically explained to me is a part of the placenta detaching from the uterine wall because of  trauma to the placenta and a portion remains attached causing severe bleeding.

Approximately, twenty minutes after Benjamin was delivered still born. I started to hemorrhage severely; it was so severe I could feel the blood gushing…

At that moment I had the knowledge, absolute,  that I was dying (it wasn’t a fear, anxiety or a a panic but an absolute knowledge), I had absolutely no fear but rather a supernatural peace descended upon me that I had not experienced to that degree before or have since…I lifted my head up off the bed, looked around and said to the medical team who were now all in emergency mode,

“Good bye, I’m going now”,

at which point, apparently, my head dropped back onto the bed and my body convulsed in an arc off the surface of the bed, falling back down limp, lifeless and colorless (those who witnessed this, later described this to me, I have no memory of this part of the event). Apparently my heart had stopped…

My memory of the experience;

The following words do not do the experience of heaven justice,  as I struggle to find the words that can best describe my experience because there are none that can fully describe the absolute awesomeness of what I saw, felt and experienced.

I was in Heaven instantly, the peace and serenity was all encompassing.  I thought to myself how amazingly beautiful and how pristine everything was, there was a clarity to everything…that again, I had not experienced before nor since. I remembered thinking how much I really loved it there. All the colors were crisp, vivid and sharp to my sight.

I found I was walking on a path and stopped and stood for awhile looking around me, I had my own thoughts and feelings, which at that point were mainly awe, joy and supreme comfort, peace and pure serenity. I can only describe it as being enveloped in the pure essence of God…I was not worried, fearful, anxious or concerned for anything, as I had the knowledge, absolute, that God was looking after everyone that was left behind, including my little daughters…(yes, I was thinking of my little girls), there was a complete and fulfilled trust in God, it wasn’t like I had to try and trust or give Him that trust, it was the complete essence of trust and a complete knowledge that He had them in His care and in that there was absolutely no need to be in any concern what so ever.

I noticed that the path that I was standing on was bright and in a setting that I can only describe as similar to an English country village, there were buildings to the right of me and fields off to the north west, there were people to my right standing and chatting amongst themselves in front of a building that had an awning hanging from its front. I had at that point knowledge of their names but had not known many of them here in this earthly life. My daughter Candy and my son Benjamin were amongst them…

I also had the knowledge that Jesus was waiting for me just up ahead in a garden and that it was important to go to Him and not veer off the path to converse with anyone. I noticed a billboard on the left of the path and a stone bridge going over a river off to my left.

I knew that it was important that I continued on the path that was in front of me, to the garden (so I started to walk towards where Jesus was waiting for me)…as I passed those who were gathered together on my right, I heard one person say to the other,

“That’s Jennifer, I didn’t know she was coming today”…

As I continued along the path, the foliage on either side became thicker and hung more over the pathway,  brushing my arms as I neared the garden…

Just as I got to the garden entrance, I experienced the sudden sensation…that someone had gently grabbed either side of my upper arms from behind and turned me 180 degrees in the opposite direction and I started traveling down the same path I just had walked upon. However this time with speed and I did not have control over this action nor the speed at which I was traveling. I had the knowledge though that I was being sent back and then I heard Jesus words behind me saying the following,

“It’s not your time yet Jennifer, go and tell my people to get ready,  for I am coming again soon…”

However, I didn’t want to leave this amazing place nor the blanketing comfort of God’s presence and love…

Suddenly…my physical eyes opened to see my physician standing over me with something in each hand…he yelled out to the rest of the medical team, who were standing back from the bed;

“We have her back…”

The pain and agony that I experienced at that moment were beyond any labor or childbirth I had endured, it was physically unbearable to be in this earthly body again.

I was urgently taken for emergency surgery to stop the hemorrhage…


 

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